Doubt Prevails

The we of the family is a shifting nucleus. As our eldest is off at college- life has a different shape. We are now four and on any occasion- three or less comprise the group. I knew it would go fast and certainly mine wasn't any faster than another's- it's more the experience of what's next. No, I didn't plan. I thought life would deliver its next chapter. I could have spent more time constructing so that I wouldn't find myself like this- caught in a web of confusion and self doubt. What is my purpose and not knowing what is up ahead and not knowing what fork I should take- as I am a solo navigator. A business yes- one that would involve others and keep me going. No, didn't do that. A job- yes. One that would morph and evolve over time. No, instead I invested myself in my calling. Not sure it was such a good idea when all is said or done. But, there is no going back. The present is mine to use, profit, abuse or squander. No one said it was easy.