I'm definitely melancholic today. Sarah started college yesterday- and the house feels odd without her. It's beautiful and sunny and I am wrestling with the guilt of feeling bad when I know how lucky we are in so many ways. This state of my head and heart is not unique to me- that I am surrounded by many who grapple with difficult feelings under the best of circumstances. Time to summon forth the positives to soothe my troubled soul- knowing happiness often requires effort, especially when the unknown creates more fear than I'd like to admit.